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kawuli
27 October 2014 @ 07:17 pm
You can also find me/my fic on: Dreamwidth, AO3, and Tumblr

Star Wars
You do it better (AO3) Rey, the things you learn growing up on Jakku
Rey on Jakku (random short bit)
Living is harder(AO3) Rey, post-The Force Awakens, culture shock.
Plant Assembly Procedures (AO3) Rey learns how plants work

Leverage
The Breakout Job (AO3) Parker helps a friend of Josie's (remember Josie the baby car thief?) to break out of a "camp for troubled youths"

Hunger Games
Surely these are the last days
The Rebellion from Below: A series of n+1 stories about the rebellion as told by its less-glamorous instigators (D9 and D6 focused). Stay tuned, if you're interested. (AO3 series)
Tractors turning the multiple furrows in the vacant land (AO3) The beginnings
The line between hunger and anger (AO3) No turning back now.

Smiles and Promises
Rokia, an OC victor from District Six
I wrote an initial version where Rokia wins the 68th and has terrible mentors, found here. Then we decided Rokia should be part of lorata et al.'s canon divergence 'verse, so she wins the 71st and has Phillips (originally from Lorata's Avenger Games crossover AUs, remixed through my headcanon) as a mentor. Lyme semi-mentor-adopts her, she builds stuff with Wiress and Beetee, helps in the rebellion, and then moves in with Lyme in District Two. (AO3 series)

Before the Games/Backstory:
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A Tribute and a Victor:
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Postwar:
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Please feel free to take this personally
Johanna (who I headcanon as winning the 66th Games), her friendship with Finnick (bffs, not sexy), and them getting involved in the Rebellion. Johanna is a tough character--these all come with warnings for drug and alcohol abuse, PTSD, forced prostitution, and bad coping mechanisms generally. (AO3 series)
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Ain't nothing but a family thing
Stories from District Four (Finnick/Annie) (AO3 series)
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I also ramble periodically about my Panem headcanons. I try to tag these posts absurd logistics of Panem (because the more you think about it, the crazier this fictional dystopia really is)

On trigger warnings: Stuff on AO3 is (hopefully!) well-tagged. For stuff posted here, I haven't tagged specific trigger warnings in most cases, although for stories that are particularly in need of such, there are usually warnings in the intros. This is the Hunger Games universe so very often there are references to violence and forced prostitution and dealing with the aftermath of both, including PTSD. Rokia's childhood comes with drug use and child abuse/neglect warnings. If you're wondering if something is going to bother you (trigger-wise or anything else-wise), please feel free to message me and ask. I promise I don't bite.
 
 
kawuli
16 July 2017 @ 07:32 pm
The names of our wounds (18414 words) by kawuli
Chapters: 4/4
Fandom: Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins, Hunger Games Series - All Media Types
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Lyme (Hunger Games), Beetee Latier, Original Female Character(s), Original Male Character(s)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, (not-everyone-dies-verse), Recovery, Post-War, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Past Rape/Non-con
Series: Part 1 of We thought we lost you (Welcome back)
Summary:

The war is over. The country is rebuilding. They won. But just like the Games: it's never over. Or it's not over yet, anyway.

Rokia, picking up the pieces.

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AO3 version of the first few postwar things (Victor consolidation up to Rokia going to Lyme's for the first time), with minor proofread-type edits from what was already posted on here. Because someone on Tumblr asked me to put this stuff up, and in case anyone wants a neater version. 
 
 
kawuli
16 July 2017 @ 01:06 pm
Start taking back what they stole (4627 words) by kawuli
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins, Hunger Games Series - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Lyme (Hunger Games), Beetee Latier, Wiress (Hunger Games), Plutarch Heavensbee, Original Characters
Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, references to forced prostitution, canon-typical horribleness, Quarter Quell, 75th Hunger Games, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
Series: Part 11 of Smiles and Promises
Summary:

Everything still feels unreal and faraway. Rokia can't make it register, all of what's about to happen, and she doesn't really think she wants to. That much… it might drown her if she tries to think about it all at once. Better to break it down, one day, one job, one moment at a time. She heads for the back of the train to watch the District disappear behind her.

Will she ever make it back? Will any of them?

Rokia, at the Third Quarter Quell.


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kawuli
13 July 2017 @ 11:45 am
It's just messy (8693 words) by kawuli
Chapters: 2/3
Fandom: Dragon Age II
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Female Hawke/Isabela
Characters: Female Hawke, Isabela (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Questionable Coping Mechanisms, dead mom feelings, (is there a standard TW tag for that?), self care is killing darkspawn
Summary:

It would be tempting to claim that Isabela is always there when Hawke needs her, but we know that isn't true. It's just not entirely wrong, either.

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This fic grew a Varric interlude, while I'm figuring out the Act 3 chapter

 
 
kawuli
23 June 2017 @ 09:17 am
I might just do some of these for fun, but if you are curious about anything/anyone in particular, go ahead and ask. (some answers are spoilery so I'll probably evade those, just so you know)
  1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?
  2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?
  3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?
  4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?
  5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?
  6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?
  7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?
  8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?
  9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?
  10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?
  11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?
  12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?
  13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?
  14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?
  15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?
  16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?
  17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?
  18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?
  19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?
  20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?
  21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?
  22. What does your character like in other people?
  23. What does your character dislike in other people?
  24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?
  25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?
  26. How does your character behave around children?
  27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?
  28. How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?
  29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?
  30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?
  31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.
  32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.
  33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?
  34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?
  35. How does your character behave around people they like?
  36. How does your character behave around people they dislike?
  37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?
  38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?
  39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?
  40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?
  41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?
  42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?
  43. Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?
  44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?
  45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?
 
 
 
kawuli
21 June 2017 @ 11:20 am
Part 2, in which Magda gets a visit, and Lyme goes all in.
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kawuli
Lyme knows what she's getting herself into--she thinks. She's not at all sure it's a good idea, but what else is she going to do?

(completely self-indulgent recovery-fic, sorrynotsorry)

Immediately follows Rokia goes to Lyme's for the first time, contains...the kinds of things you'd expect from early postwar Rokia fic.

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kawuli
Things that make me optimistic about new-therapist (after 2 sessions):

1. She actually uses scientific language and a relatively high level of jargon, which I like because, well, I’m a scientist even if psychology is not my field and science-language is comfortable. But also because it feels like she’s paying enough attention to realize that and not just doing the same thing for everybody.

2. She will say things like “I know this sounds weird and you might not like it, but give it a shot because there’s evidence it works” e.g. when talking about visualization stuff (also “A lot of people say ‘visualize a safe place’ but I like to call it a calm place because sometimes nowhere actually feels safe” yes good)

3. Good concrete metaphors for things, that don’t feel patronizing.

4. Was completely unimpressed by my level of education/weird global travel stuff. Did not realize how nice this would be until I was explaining like 10 years of mental-health-relevant history that occurred on four continents and she was just like “okay” and did not make it A Thing. (this sounds like a humblebrag but is not intended that way sorry)

5. Somehow (people-magic idk) makes me feel like I don’t have to be polite or pretend to know less than I do.

6. I don’t feel like I have to know what I want to do when I walk in--it’s not like she’s steamrolling me but it’s not just like “what do you want to talk about today?” and when she asked something about what was bothering me most and I went ????? she just said “okay then let’s work on distress tolerance and skills for de-escalating brainweasel attacks” (not what she said but I don’t remember the phrasing) and we did that and it was actually useful
 
 
kawuli
02 June 2017 @ 07:14 pm
It's just messy (6577 words) by kawuli
Chapters: 1/2
Fandom: Dragon Age II
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Female Hawke/Isabela
Characters: Female Hawke, Isabela (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Questionable Coping Mechanisms, dead mom feelings, self care is killing darkspawn
Summary: It would be tempting to claim that Isabela is always there when Hawke needs her, but we know that isn't true. It's just not entirely wrong, either. And sometimes taking care of a friend is hauling her out to get drunk and kill bad guys (not necessarily in that order), or convincing her to listen to her selfish desires instead of the responsible ones for once. And for all Hawke and Isabela might deny it, there's no avoiding bringing some feelings into this.

(begins after Leandra's death, canon compliant through Act 2, no promises for Act 3)

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(I have not played Origins or Inquisition, so please don't spoil those for me in comments, thanks)
 
 
kawuli
In case you missed it, I started playing Dragon Age 2, and to the surprise of absolutely no one I have a lot of feelings about f!Hawke and Isabela. And (also to the surprise of no one) the longer thing I’m writing is full of awful, so I wanted a counterpoint.

Early Act 2-ish, after they get together but before the stuff with Leandra. And if I could write sex there would be some but I can’t so you’ll just have to use your imagination.

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